- Do you crunch numbers or take calls by day and twerk it for some Tuna Helper by night?
- Are you up on the latest developments in politics and foreign affairs but can also recite 90% of the lyrics to Rick Ross’ “Hold Me Back” like a bawse if necessary?/span>
Then you just might be a…
Yeah number one is me lmao!!
OHMIGOD….. Yes. Just. YES. :p”’
This guy…. He was my very first love, my first everything and my first true heart break….. I look at this picture quite often because when he took this, this was a happier time. A time where I was head over heals for him and would do anything to make him happy. I may trash talk him all I want but I know my heart still breaks knowing that we are done and that he has moved on just like that… He managed to just move on like nothing after four years of being on and off. I was there for him when he was half way across the world and wanted to talk about everything when he was on the verge of breaking. I was there when he went through his break downs. I risked everything for him. I risked my parents kicking me out of the house when they knew I kept in contact with him. I risked loosing my best friend over him (which I did). I risked loosing my other friends so I could make him happy. Just to think, being only 16, so naive and hopelesly in love, that I didn’t see he was dragging me around and leading me on for the whole four years I kept a “relationship” with him. I always had this hope, this fantasy that he would just come to his senses and tell me that he loves me too and for us just to have a beautiful, happy life together with children, a house and marriage. Of course it never happend. I was just there for his convience. It still sadens me to this day that all he could say to me that he will always care as a friend. I would never have the opprotunity to ever know what its like to be loved and protected by him… To be truly happy with him. To carry his children and be his wife. I will never get to experience any of that with him and it makes me sick and angry. It angers me to know that I wasted four years and a relationship with my own father just for him. But in the midst of it all… I wouldnt want to ever give it back. In fact, I would go back and do it all over again. I dont regret the years I put in this and get to expreince love. Some people arent fourtant enough to experience love and Im glad I got to. I do however, regret what kind of person this experience did make me. At first, it made me vounerable to other guys and I kind of just went through them and trusted too much. Now, Im just cold and dont want to ever experience love ever again. I’m glad I went through what I went through or else I wouldnt be as strong as I am today. One day I might want to experience love, but untill then, I’m still stiching up the wounds you left me. I miss you so much Jordan Gallivan…. But I dont want you back all at the same time. Its been 8 months since we broke it off for good and Im still breaking. Will I ever get over you? Eventually. Untill then, i’m not quiet ready to let go just yet…